pRisCiLLa

2010-02-26T00:53:00.001+08:00

2006-08-14T00:20:00.000+08:00

"The worst pain in the world is knowing that he meant everything to you but you meant nothing to him. But, life goes on once you realize your own strength inside of you: the strength to realize that saying goodbye doesn't mean that you don't love the person anymore or that you don't want to keep them in your life. It doesn't mean you're weak. It means that you've the strength to let go and live your life to the fullest because you've learned that life really is good. You are strong and can only be as happy as you choose."

i never knew where i stood in your life ; in your heart.
but i guess it was never important ; you have more important stuff in life.
after all this while i finally could not take it anymore.
i left you.
i will not regret. but sometimes i do wonder about the different possibilities.
i do miss you at times. and i wish you well.

2006-07-15T00:16:00.000+08:00

this place holds too much memories.
some too painful to look at.
just wanna look forward and move on.

i am moving on fine with my life. (:
i will be strong and be happy. no more tears!

2006-07-12T18:25:00.000+08:00

its a wednesday. and im home. gosh.
so bored la. school ended so early. slacked ard and went home w yinki.
both of us were like. so early. really must go home?
lolx. not really used to being home early.

this is what i`ll do to curb my boredness.

Do you prefer to sleep or talk to a friend when it gets boring in class?
`talk.
Do you wave hi with a smile or a serious face?
` obviously with a smile. who in the world says hi with a serious face?
One thing that you like about your house?
`my wall of fame.
If you were left with five months to live, what would you do?
`spend time with all the love ones in my life
What is your favourite brand of shoes?
`mphosis and urs.
The last time you cried because of someone?
`i think i cried bcuz of me
Chocolate ice cream or chocolate bar?
`greedy me says both. (:
Rudest thing you have done to your teacher?
`i have always been a good student. haha
What's the good thing about schooling?
`i get to see my friends at least 5 days a week
The first thought when going to tampines mall?
`i miss that place. cruising thru the shops aft school
The last song you downloaded?
`sweet home alablama
Which part of your body is itchy and aching now?
`my shoulders and neck are aching. my eyes are itchy
Worms or cockroaches?
`none.
Punk rock or slow rock?
`slow rock please
Yawn with your eyes open or closed?
`open
If you can have a choice, would you prefer to be friends or attached with someone you love now?
`i wanna be with the person i love. (:

aiights. gotta change and get ready for joggin! yay!
imma healthy girl. LOL!

2006-07-12T00:53:00.000+08:00

i agree with yi wei. this year is a bad year for the 87s love life.
saw quite a few examples myself. went through it too.

my dear friend. if you are reading. i want you to know that im always here for you.
im glad that you said by talking to me i helped you a lil.
its a nice feeling to know that im helping someone.
but that`s the least i can do for a friend.
im in no position to make a decision for you. the final decision lies with you.
i can only guide you ; give you advice
since you have alr made the decision ; i`ll stand next to you
to support you ; to help you make through it
its not gonna be easy. esp when you guys have been tgt for quite awhile.
the emotional attachment. that`s the hardest.
for a moment in your life you will feel so lonely and lost.
and wonder is this the right decision.
dun fret. you have me and all your other friends.
when time comes ; you might be happier

be who you used to be. and be happy. (:

2006-07-12T00:42:00.000+08:00

accts paper sucks like hell.
i know i can balance it. but i dunno what was my mind thinking.
other than balance sheet. the rest was really crap.
how would i know why spore uses specific provision?!
its rubbish!!! whatever la. cant be bothered much also.

after the paper went dwn to meet mandy and jiam.
it has been quite awhile since we last met.
had dinner at manhattan. hmm. the ambience was really nice.
the food not too bad as well. but then again.
the calamaris were too much. not gonna touch that in a month or so.
guess all 3 of us were really terrified of calamaris after that meal.
it has been so nice. eating. talking. laughing. taking pics.
just enjoy meeting them. catching up over a simple dinner. (:

came home ; walked past the playground.
and i realised it has been long.
missed sitting ard the playground. :/

this friendship is here to last. (:

2006-07-11T01:15:00.000+08:00

no lect tml. whee.
can study for acctgs alr. but doubt i can do it.
whatever la.

meeting jiam and mandy for dinner tml.
at glasshouse. (:
been long since i had a nice and luxurious meal.
haha. thank god mum`s back. got a lil extra.

am so happy now. am a happy lil girl.
bliss and happy in my own world.
thanks.
(:

gotta slp alr. nights world.

2006-07-10T14:36:00.000+08:00

back from world cup finals.
and boo. lost money. but the match was real exciting.
it was really weird seeing zidane got red card. his head was really made of steel.
hahahahaha. it was funny and disappointed at the same time.

din had a good sleep. now back at home.
so worn out. gonna get a nice nap and wake up and study for acctg.
woohoo! a test that im bound to fail! woo hoo!

whole body aching. esp my neck and shoulders. and i dunno why.
i really need a massage. any volunteer? haha.
whatever. gotta slp. too tired alr.

2006-07-09T01:48:00.000+08:00

right. some thick skin guy came over and talk to me when its 0104 on a sunday morning.
which means its 090706.
and that is jonathan lai jun yi`s 19th birthday!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JON!

this is for you only ok.
4 years in peirce. ever since sec 1 ; days were so enjoyable with you ard.
from the vanhalen days with pure entertainment and shit.
it was crappy and funny. you did changed alot jon.
you grew to be more mature and more handsome.
AYE! dun be too proud ok!
but somewhere you are still the crappy funny jon i knew.
hmm. when we went to sec 3. we kinda drifted apart. you had emil.
and i had a new group of friends. with ting ting and all.
but somehow our friendship is able to withstand such circumstances.
6 years had passed. we are now leading our own lifes.
dun get to meet often or talk often but i know that you are always there for me.
thou you never said it. i knew it. right? you better be. haha.
and yes im always here for you.
there will be many more years to come for us to contd celebrating this friendship.
you still owe me and tc a date dwn to billy`s.
we can always meet up for breakfast during the weekends.
this friendship is a part of me. you are a friend i din regret knowing and i never will.
i treasure this friendship. (:
i love you jon ; friends for life yea!
and once again

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JONATHAN!!!

2006-07-09T01:21:00.000+08:00

germany vs portugal later on. trying to keep myself awake.
gonna watch that. im betting that`s why. haha.
thou germany`s my fav but im betting on portugal.
dun ask me why. its just my gut feelings.

anyway mum`s back! yay! haha.
last month i was searching high and low for loose powder and tada!
this month she came back with christian dior`s.
i was surprised. cause i din expect such good quality one.
i told her no need buy so ex and she said it`s things you are putting on your face! so nvm. haha.
whatever la.

today i practically rotted the whole day at home la.
how sad right! its a saturday with no date.
but me myself and CRSPA. finally after so much editing and justification im finally done!
can take a breather for a couple of days. finally.

finals tml. so excited. cant wait for it.
cant wait for the company too. it will be great and fun.
(:

2006-07-07T23:30:00.000+08:00

im totally worn out. tired. stress. body aching all over.
woke up early this morning for bk breakfast.
must faster use the coupon b4 it expires. haha.
after breakfast walk`d ard ; went to tpy park and rest
b4 i leave for school.

had SPSS test. and well it was really shit. guess the whole cohort had no idea what that thing was talking abt and nobody feel confident abt it. whatever. its over alr. no point mulling over it. just pray and hope for the best. (:

went for marketing lecture. thou im like super tired i managed to stay awake and pay attention to her. not bad hur. guess marketing is the only lecture that i enjoy attending. LoL.

travelled dwn to hougang and meet yinki sweetheart.
we had a date. a date w the gym as well. haha.
thou its not really fruitful but then again its a good start.
(:
once every week. slowly the frequencies will increase.
spent 2 hours there and now im aching all over.
i just wanna go for a full body massage. gosh. how heavenly that will be.
(:
acc her to clinic b4 gg home.
feels so nice to come out from the bath. hahahahahaa.
now im super not motivated to do CRSPA. im so tired.

wait for hair to dry and i`ll hibernate with my bed.
(:

2006-07-07T02:03:00.000+08:00

im stress up by whatever shit that i gotta do.
im so grumpy in school today.
i just feel pissed at every single thing.
lucky im able to contol it ; or else i will snap at every single thing.

CRSPA is finally somewhere near done.
just gotta let my buddy see and if its ok. TADA! one load off!
hmm. AR objective is nowhere to be seen.
tml`s SPSS test is unprepared. dunno hw am i gonna die!

anyway im so wide awake now. with a nap earlier on and a stupid mms sent by JT.
i really cant slp!
i totally want to kill him la. that idiot v clever lor. send alr dun want answer my call.
i was so scared la. im alone in my room ; late at night ; stress.
that idiot! i really want to kill him la!
GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR

fine fine. gotta go. if not i will never get to wake up tml!
WEEKEND IS ROUND THE CORNER!
WOOHOO!

2006-07-06T02:46:00.000+08:00

hurt and damaged done.
im such an idiot!
sorry.

put on a smile ; be strong ; and be the priscilla everybody know.
tml will be a better day.

not gonna go for lectures.
firstly. dun think im gonna make it.
secondly. think my eyes will be too puffed up.

CRSPA tml. din do shit today.
match in 15 mins.
portugal my fav. but feelings say france will make it.
lets see hur.

2006-07-06T00:57:00.000+08:00

1. Do the following WITHOUT complaints
2. Choose 5 people to do this after you completed yours
3. Leave a tag on the person's tagboard to say he/she have been tagged
4. Start your post with "I have been tagged!" then do this.

I HAVE BEEN TAGGED BY: JIAMM

FAVOURITES
favourite colour: white ; orange ; purple
favourite food: prawn mee
favourite song: so sick-neyo
favourite day of the week: friday. can slp late the next morning
favourite season: autumn

CURRENTS
current mood: exhausted ; happy ; tied down
current taste: nothing
current clothes: tank top and shorts
current desktop: wolverine from xmen 3
current toenail: colourless :(
current time: 1249am
current surroundings: my room. cosy.
current annoyances: projects. and my "fav" girl
current thoughts: monday`s morning WC final

FIRSTS
first best friend(s): wileen
first crush: ong jun han
first movie: i cant rememeber!

LASTS
last cigarette: thy shalt not smoke
last drink: ice lemon tea
last movie: superman returns
last phone call: mummy dearest

HAVE YOU EVER...
have you ever dated your best friend: nopex.
have you ever broken the law: yes.
have you ever been arrested: nopex.
have you ever skinny-dipped: nopex.
have you ever been on tv: yupz.

5 things you are wearing: tank top ; shorts ; undies ; specs ; ear studs
4 things you done today: went to school ; went to ikea ; meet him ; talk
3 things you can hear right now: run it ; msn ; keyboard
2 things you are going to do: get a drink and contd w CRSPA
1 thing you do when you are bored: amuse myself and ppl ard me

tag? Aggy ; Babear ; Ting Ting ; Yi Wei ; Alvin

2006-07-05T22:56:00.000+08:00

just finished talking w mum.
she`s definitely a hip one. cause she`s mine.
haha. which mum will call you up and say she wanna bet w you on the match later on?
haha. i love my mum.

anyway. she called up again aft our bets.
and she talked to me abt stuffs. like my love life. lolx.
she is really concern over the fact that me and james are no longer tgt.
she told me she msg`d him and ask him how is he.
well. and he answered saying that he feel that its unfair to him cause he has to work and cant acc me and i want to break up bcuz of that.
up till now he still dun get it. its not bcuz of that.
and yes, mum asked if he still got contact me and stuff.
i told her no. and she told me that if he really cherish this r.s he wun let go so easily.
i agree. judging the response i get aft the breakup ; its quite saddening and heartbreaking.
but still its ok. i`ve moved on. i gotta be strong.
mummy told me quite alot of things and well i agree.

isnt it irritating. when i have finally decided to let go and move on.
something just come and refresh your memory. tear open your wound which is healing.
is this fair to me? no it isnt!
i stepped out of my shadow and walk in the light.
now all of a sudden im in the shadow again. this feeling sucks totally.
its hurting so bad. tears are flowing again.
think im just too weak to be strong.

2006-07-04T21:48:00.000+08:00

BESE presentation is screwed. hope i dun get the entire grp in trouble.
haiz. dunno what`s wrong with me la. suddenly so nervous.
guess too long nv present alr. whatever la.
its over and im screwed. period.

met yinki for dinner. walked ard to get some essentials and back home.
short catch up like tis is treasured.
we are all busy with our own projects since we`re no longer in the same class and in the same grp for projects.
time spent are really the minimal. everybody making an effort to catch up is appreciated.
really. (:
had a great time talking. talking abt all things. sometimes i wished the train journey could be longer. cause it seems like i always do not have sufficient time talking to her. haha.
its ok. we got friday. (:

anyway here i am. back at home. trying to work some stuffs out for tml`s marketing PBL sharing. and its really bad. cant believe im in such a grp. lucky is just one project w them. if not. my complaints will never end. hahah.
friendster daily horoscope says : Your energy won't be consistent, but you'll still be able to get a lot done now.
true. im so tired now. but i still have to get EVERYTHING done!
still got CRSPA Learning issues ; AR objectives ; AR test to study.
but aft tml. can slack abit la. yay!

to end on a happier note ; we still have one more week to go b4 you start work.
yay! can watch finals tgt alr! yay!

germany wins tonight and i will win $10 from my mum. haha.
my mum was really hip! msg`d me ytd to make a bet w me. she is like all the way in KL! haha.
i love my mummy!

2006-07-04T02:30:00.000+08:00

finally done with the BESE speech.
i din even have time to do my marketing. im dead shit tml!
i totally forgot that i need a freakin speech till wei lun used my comp and print his speech in the lab this afternoon. grrr. whatever la.

culi today was rather fun. working at petit is so much more relax than rits.
maybe cause we were use to the high pressure in rits hence compared to petit its nth.
we were all "kop-ing" food whenever possible. all the food staring at you. how to resist such temptations. omg. the onion rings!! haha. gonna eat at petit tml. LoL.
anyway was late for class today. late by 30 mins. and its totally not my fault!
cause its freaking youth day and the entire spore students who have holiday decided to enjoy in SENTOSA! of all place sentosa!!! i was really boiling la! GRRRRRRRRRR!
KIDS!!! GROW UP MAN! there are places like east coast ; west coast ; pasir ris beach. LEAVE SENTOSA ALONE! okok. whatever. its over alr.

bought muffins back for sis ; granny and definitely not forgetting that silly boy. (:
came home for dinner and left for ice cream soon.
again, we`ve failed to eat B&J`s. you better hurry up. or else.........
-evil laughters-
whatever la. so tired. gonna slp soon.
tml 1130. cannot late!

2006-07-03T01:21:00.000+08:00

culinary quiz
BESE powerpoint
CRSPA learning issues
Marketing report
AR test

gosh. there are just so much on my to do list.
sometimes i wish that i could have more than 24hrs a day.
well. actually it all boils down to time management and discipline.
ya la. im someone who is super bad in time management and my discipline aint that good as well. >.<
but currently im still ok with it. haha.

grr. marketing. grrr. i dunno what`s my group doing la.
stupid mr ram! if it wasnt for him.
i would be with my girls doin marketing.
BAHHHHHHHH!!!

school`s at 11 tml. totally have no idea what`s in store for us.
at least get to wake up later. and when i think abt the fact that there`s debrief.
it aint that bad to get the later shift. haha.

its a new week. and this week aint gonna be the same.
at least from mid-week onwards. hope things will still turn out alright.
whatever.
i want more of dutch lady choc milk. it`s been awhile since i last drank cups of that.
haha.
and yes. somebody still owe me B&J`s dublin mudslide.
please own up before punishment is imposed on you. haha.

When I think of you I get this feeling that I want to see you. I miss you.

2006-07-02T16:26:00.000+08:00

met up with zhen you last night just for catching up.
been missing out loads on each other lifes.
great time spent. talking and laughing.
always there to cheer me up when im down.
always there for me. (:
such a great brother!

he slacked ard with me while waiting for the late guy.
haha. said to meet at 930. only leave his hse at 930.
>.<
after that i went over to clarke quay`s china one and watched the england vs portugal match.
me for portugal and him for england.
man. first half was really a bore! second half not too bad.
i simply love watching penalty kicks!
WOAH! ricardo was the man last night!!
he saved lampard`s and gerrard`s goals!
gerrard smug face before his try was irritating! and that look aft ricardo dived was priceless!
haha. whatever.
anyway yes. i was simple elated that portugal got in! and they are gonna be against france next!
portugal can do it. finals pls let me see germany vs portugal!

after the game. walked dwn to esplanade. slacked for awhile b4 coming home.
was super tired. my eyes hurt like mad.
woke up to wei hua`s msg. grrr. project project project.
whatever. sunday and im home. bahhhhhhhhhhh!

2006-07-01T03:19:00.000+08:00

YAY! GERMANY WON!
i was practically skipping ard the entire house when i saw Lehmann saved the second goal.
woohoo!!!
nono. no shit abt germany being the host country and whatever ok.
the penalty kicks are no lies. the entire world saw it with their own eyes.
MWAHAAHAHAA.
all thanks to KLOSE for the equaliser so that i could enjoy the breathtaking ; heartstopping penalty kick! hahahahhaha.

GERMANY! im gonna see you in the finals!!!
hmm. i miss oliver khan. hope to see him in action soon. lolx.
madness me!

2006-07-01T01:25:00.000+08:00

woots. its time to welcome a new month!
haha. month of july! few birthdays to keep in mind.
9 july : jonathan lai.
15 july: chrystabel
19 july: mummy
21 july: shu fen

well well. at least this 4 are the ones worth mentioning.
im sorry if you`re not listed here. gotta let me know when`s your birthday ya. haha.

waiting patiently for the result from today`s match.
i want germany to get in!

hmm. still feeling superbly emo. i dunno why.
came back from playground ; super reluctant to go home knowing that i wun be meeting you tml.
i wished that time could stop.
i just want one more min. one more hug. one more kiss.
checked up some stuffs on italy. did the math and woah. i really gotta start saving now. or else i can say goodbye to my trip there next year. sighz. we shall see how la.
i can be all weak and vulnerable now.
but when time comes. when i turn 19.
i gotta be strong. gotta be so strong that i can just amaze myself!
i know my friends will be there for me. (:
right right. i cant take it anymore. back to the match peeps.

2006-06-30T14:31:00.000+08:00

woohoo. ZW`s talking non-stop w nobody paying attention.
i dun even know what the fark she talking abt. and yes. next week im having a test on it. bahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
sitting at the back of the lab rocks! eating. and talking. and surfing online aimlessly is great.
hahahahahahahaha.

last night was a shitty night. this morning i really hate to leave my bed.
but still got up and got ready and went dwn and meet him.
had breakfast over at potong pasir b4 i leave for school.
he was such a sweetheart. acc me all the way to harbourfront and then he had to rush back for his driving at 1230. haha.
hmm. who doesnt like to be escorted? well. definitely nt me.
it was good. seeing you for awhile b4 i leave for school. no more such thing when you start work next week. :(
well well. changes changes. life is filled with changes. '
im gonna deal with more changes when time comes. :(
just have to learn and grow along with it as time pass. im strong. i can deal with it.
hahahahahahahahahahahahahaha.
im really high on nothing xia. i just wanna laugh at every single thing now. and shout ZW! you suck! hahaha. whatever la.

school`s ending late today. imf talk from 6-7. interview aftwards.
tralalalalalalalalalala.
WC is gonna be interesting tonight. argentina vs germany.
YEAH MAN! germany is gonna win it! KLOSE IS MY MAN! hahahahhaha.

right right. i dunno what im talking abt. all random stuffs. pardon me peeps.

any moment spent away from you is too long.

2006-06-30T01:58:00.000+08:00

nth much. ended school early.
crazy groceries shopping.
1st week of school is coming to an end.

hate this time of the month.
mood swings. super emo. hate it hate it.

long day tml. got the stupid imf thing.
dun even know if i`ll get it. cant be bothered anyway.

dunno what`s running thru my mind also.
i just know that im not happy. i dunno why.
dun ask why. i really dunno. nuff said. nights peeps.
hope that i`ll have a great weekend. im yearning for a great weekend. i really do.

2006-06-28T23:57:00.000+08:00

i seriously need an alarm clock!
i couldnt wake up in the morning for classes. my hp alarm is useless.
bad. missed marketing. late for accounting.
how bad can the day be.
anyway got back my accounting paper. i passed.
27.5 / 40
not good i know. but still im happy that i pass. haha.

etiquette project was cancelled as both lab were in use and library is full.
went dwn to ps early and waited for him to come.
walked ard and went over to cathay to get tickets.
i was happily waiting for my chance to choose the seats when he told the person he made a booking. i was totally surprised ; shocked ; loss of word ; dunno how to react.
actually i think it was rather sweet. haha. whatever.
went dwn for a smoke and waited for time to pass.
finally time for movie. watched superman. the movie quite long. almost 2.5 hrs.
and the story line not v nice also. its just interesting to see that he is a man of steel. haha.
was kinda disappointed with the movie la. anyway had dinner at carls` jr b4 coming home.
and now im here typing this shit and not wanting to do my concept map.
bahhhhhhhhhhh!!!

not gonna be late tml. wanna bet? hahahahaha. its gonna be hard. lolx.
whatever it is. cramps are killing me. and i finally know why im so emo the past few days. hahah.
and im seriously craving for chocolates and ice cream!!!!

2006-06-28T00:17:00.000+08:00

back from my daily routine - visit to the playground. C:

now its time for a book review.
i just finish reading A Crack In Forever by Jeannie Brewer.
well. it is something v different from all the other romance i read.
this book there`s no happily live forever ending. death forced this 2 people who are v much in love apart.
eric moro and alexandra taylor met by fate and got tgt by love.
things were going on great until one day eric found out that he is infected with aids.
he know that his future and dream will be gone. but he din bother. what he cared most was alex.
he was infected by his ex gf, tiffany, who used to do drugs and they shared needle. that`s hw he got infected.
alex did not leave him, continue to stay by his side cause she love him.
day by day ; eric got weaker. alex switched jobs to spend more time w him.
their wedding got postponed indefinitely.
alex knew that one day eric gotta go. but she refuse to accept that.
anyway, eric died in the end and alex managed to face death in the face boldly.
the title was explained in a way that brought me to tears. i cant really express it in words like this. if you have the chance. do read it. it will change your life somehow.

i cried buckets. its so awful to see the one you love die b4 you and there`s nth you can do.
and it dawn on me that life is so fragile. anything can happen anytime. and there will always be insufficient time for you to do all you want. insufficient time to spend forever with the one you love. this book made me wanna hug everyone and tell them i love them. i know i often take my family for granted. but they are the most impt ppl in my life. (: im so afraid of losing my love ones after reading the book. and separation from someone you really love. i never want to go thru the pain of losing someone i love like alexandra.
this just got me thinking so much. if im so afraid of losing someone who i really love then maybe i should prevent myself from getting into the pit. so i will not feel the hurt and despair when that happens one day. right?!

if you are reading this. i want you to know that im really scared of losing you ; be separated from you ; to know that one day you will not feel this way abt me anymore.

2006-06-27T21:33:00.000+08:00

i dunno why im so tired. i still cant believe hols are over.
i want more late and lazy mornings.
went school for 3 hrs of etiquette only.

met that silly boy before coming home. apparently he wants to see how i look like in formal.
haha.
now. trying to do something for my spa project.
im having a super bad craving for ice cream!!!!!
BAHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

its a 10-3 day tml. and im happy. school is ending early for me every wed from now on.
woohooo! no more BOE! so happy la. keke. want date me peeps? on wed ya. LoL.
aiights. gotta work on my spa now.

2006-06-27T01:02:00.000+08:00

thousand and one thing is going thru my mind.
im going crazy. i need a nice shoulder to lean on.
im sick of being strong. i just wanna be weak now.
i need time off. so that i do not need to worry abt reaching school in time for lesson esp with the post after effect. haiz.

can i not be strong for once?

2006-06-27T00:32:00.000+08:00

yay. first day back at TAS. realise i kinda miss it.
haha. anyway had culi lesson today.
and well. its quite ok. burnt my hand a lil. still ok compared to the burnt i had in the past.
haha. had debrief at 4pm la. and that stupid J.S still say next week onwards wil have this kinda shit. omg. i will end v early next week onwards lor. SUCKER!

came home. rest awhile and changed and went for a swim.
i really love the feeling of being in the water.
went for dinner aft that. my first proper meal of the day.
and well. while eating i saw someone who i din really want to see.
whatever la.

came home. sat at the playground and talk again. its amazing how time could pass by so fast just by talking to you. actually there are just so much to tell you. but sometimes somethings just cant be said out liddat. i also dunno what rubbish i talking now la. BAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
pieces here and there. cant organise properly. im so tired. i wish............................. =)

2006-06-26T00:39:00.000+08:00

goodbye term break.
no more enjoyment for me anymore.
its back to travelling to and fro sentosa 5 days a week.
being late for classes almost every morning
complaining non-stop abt school
not paying full attention in class.
well well. this shows im not a good student.
but then again its all these that makes school life memorable. (:
best part of all. say hello to all my pilling projects with deadlines that love me so much that they keep moving closer to me. sighx.

woke up this morning and went over to granny`s.
long time since i went there. and i felt real bad. i do love my granny loads.
sometimes just get so caught up with life that i neglect spending time w her.
not gg dwn to visit her. gosh. have to start making it a habit alr.
anyway much to do there as usual. so left abt 6plus.
met that silly boy over at farrer park mrt and then we travelled to tpy central.
well well. something confirm happened to my umbrella uncle.
):
no more chocolate and attapchi ice cream for me.
the ice cream i ate all these years. nothing could replace the $1 joy i have from that ice cream! ):
saw jordan outside the lib. missed working at msh.
those nonsensical stuffs we talked abt. those fun times.
esp working w andy. miss andy ; jashawn ; marco ; jason
the best collegues in the world.
took care of me like a lil sis. (:
had dinner. finally got to satisfy my wanton mee craving. (:
came home. talked plenty. went over to playground again.
time just pass by so fast. i wish that time will stop when im with you.
i really dread packing my bag. cause i will have lesser time to meet you.
):

2006-06-25T04:09:00.000+08:00

pics from today`s camwhoring session

shady loves

our super candid pictures. haha.

take a good look at my beloved babear. she is one of a gem! a friend for lifetime. i can still rmb the first day in peirce you are my first friend. and our friendship has blossomed so much since then. friends for life hur!

good night peeps. im farking retarded. i know. (:

2006-06-25T00:24:00.000+08:00

yay! finally met up w my sweetheart pomelo.
hahahahhaa. miss her so much la. been at least 2 weeks since i last met her.
she was so late today la. and its v unusual cause most of the time im the one who is late.
hahahahaha. anyway we went to nana thai restaurant for lunch
omg. lucky we din order the medium pineapple rice. or else. we dun need to walk alr.
the pineapple rice was delicious. esp w those prawns. so fresh!
and yupz. my babear shell`d the prawn for me.
how sweet can this sweetheart be. (:
no wonder i love her so much
we ate and we talked and we talked and we talked.
just enjoy talking to that girl. so we left aft much talking and when some of the food start digesting. hahahah.
wanted to buy new nail polish. but there`s no more stock. how cruel can life be!?
when i finally want to spend some money. there isnt anything for me to spend.
grrr. walked over to taka and went to mango since they were having sales. (:
we spent near to 2 hours there. searching. trying. deciding. hahahahahahah.
we each bought 3 tops. (: after shopping. was thirsty. went for milkTEA. not milkshake. haha.
and well that`s where the cam-whoring started.
after finishing our drinks we went upstairs and took more pics.
omg. so pai sei la. we were doing all sort of weird things and there were so many ppl walking ard. omg. lucky nobody i know walk past. or i can just dig a hole and hide my face! LoL.
trained home aft that. i cant believe it. how can time pass by so fast whenever im enjoying myself. sschool is starting soon. and i wish we can really meet up more often. like every wed. we have a secret date on every wed right babear? hahahhahaa.

came back and waited for you at the playground.
told ya. its a daily routine that cant be missed. haha.
just love talking to you. i really do. (:
everything feels so right just having you next to me. (:

monday school`s starting soon. and i totally dread it!
cannot meet you as and when we like. haiz.

you just said something that bring tears to my eyes.
you said you will make sure there aint anymore nightmare.
its a promise that aint easy to make.
thanks for saying that. (:
<3<3<3

2006-06-24T04:04:00.000+08:00

managed to catch the 1230 RV at balestier.
the show`s funny. but not as funny as i expected.
saw the upcoming adam sandler trailer- click.
OMG! im so gonna watch it. my quirky funny adam sandler!
after the movie walked over to novena for chicky rice.
it has been long since i last ate that.

anyway macs happy meal are giving away snoopy again
i was just complaining the other day why they stopped producing snoopy stuffs. haha.
am so gonna eat happy meal to collect all 8
i alr had my v 1st one.
im definitely a happy girl. (:

came home and chatted at the void deck b4 time`s up.
well well. its amazing how time pass by so fast whenever im with you.
esp when we are talking. i have never enjoyed talking so much to someone i like b4.
the feeling is amazing.
you`re now over at chalet. and it feels weird not chatting w you online.
im missing you. (:

2006-06-22T23:03:00.000+08:00

finally get to eat my hotcakes with sausage and ice milo.
:)
woke up real early for that. came home an hour later and catch up with my sleep.
was super reluctant to wake up and meet my girls.
in the end im late. i mean what`s new right?
hahaha. but there is a even more tardy queen compared to me.
yes darling. im talking abt you.
you know who you are. hahahahhahha.

enjoyed my 5 hours of singing with the girls at cine frezzing kbox.
it has been super long since we went singing tgt.
wan yi ; sher ; yinki and me
felt great. super fun. me and wan yi shared my rather useless shawl.
hahaha. and we kept refiling tidbits till the waiter and waitress know who are we lor.
so pai sei la. wahahahahahaha.

was lazy to pick up my winnings. gonna do that tml.
talked at the playground b4 coming up.
it has kinda become a routine. meeting at the playground and talk.
tonight`s topic aint exactly something that i will really want to talk abt.
i gotta be strong for me and for you
take one step at a time and everything will work out.

movie tml? sounds good. C:

2006-06-22T02:29:00.000+08:00

staying awake for the 3am match. i think its gonna be EXCITING!
thou watching it alone abit lonely. but its ok. C:

went back to school today for CRSPA. did alil.
forget to bring thumbdrive. clever me.
so stayed in school till almost 5 plus.
reached home after 6. waited for you to come by.
walked ard and just talk.
these kinda lil moments we share are so precious.
C:

came home for dinner. yipee! daddy cooked!
miss home cook food.
watched the portugal vs mexico match.
my heart was really racing with each seconds that ticked past.

mac breakfast tml? hopefully it will be a successful one.
HAAS. aiights. wish me luck!
im gonna root for holland!

2006-06-21T01:47:00.000+08:00

was supposed to wake up early for breakfast.
but then me being me. overslept again.
and yes. im the one who caused the disappointment in not eating the breakfast.
GRRRRRRRR. but but we were there at 11am sharp!
and they say no more. :(
this manager not nice. the other time i only wanted hashbrown.
the manager is willing to fry ONE for me.
SEE! im really super duper upset.
whatever. ended up eating brunch at MOS burger. keke.

came home ; bathe and got ready to go out.
wanted to catch a movie. but then the timing sucks.
so ended up just roaming ard and eating.
enjoyed myself. :)
but each time i see you take your wallet ; stupid things are running thru my mind again.
whatever.
met up with mandy and jiam for dinners.
its dinner like this that makes me feel jolly. cause i miss them.
and those days in NY. lovesss sweethearts.
:)

back to school for SPA tml. SUCKS!

2006-06-20T01:49:00.000+08:00

supposed to go for some treetop walk at macritchie.
but sad to say. its closed on monday.
so ended up wandering aimlessly with nature.
went to prata house for dinner. man. i miss that place.
i was so full. cant even eat indian rojak. cant even eat ice cream.
ice kimo was so near yet so far.
haas. it has been long since i ate ice cream.
but come to think of it. i had one last night. but not the creamy type i want. HAAS.
whatever.

project cancelled tml. so mac breakfast shall be it.
hopefully i can wake up for it tml.
:)
super looking forward to it.
meeting jiam and mandy for dinner as well.
yay. miss those 2 crazy woman.
we are gonna eat ban mian! woo hoo! HAAS.
tml will be a better day.
:)

my thougths send me on a carousel
i hope i can stop thinking abt all these.

2006-06-18T13:15:00.000+08:00

right. liquid was... alright.
the music so-so. the crowd weird. and i was super not high la.
everything i rmb so clearly. so the not high part made the night kinda not that fun.
but then again. clubbing w my girls ; enjoying with them is the best part.
:)

cabbed home w yinki and halin.
that silly boy was feeling stress and confuse and whatever.
ended up talking to him b4 gg up.
and yupx. kinda worried. hope everything is well ya.

anyway slept abt 5. woke up at 10 plus this morning.
woke up and started preparing daddy`s lunch.
thou its not VERY nice like restaurant standard.
but still he liked it. :)
soup ; main course ; drink and dessert.
HAAS.

the not so appetising main course.

but it was depleted quickly. and i heard a few satisfying burps. :)

so bored now. gotta start rotting soon.
1 more week of hols. and seems like its project everyday.
GRRRRRRRR!

2006-06-17T20:29:00.000+08:00

planned a nice lunch for daddy tml.
its father`s day. :)
hope everything turned out fine. a 4 course meal
:)

a bored saturday. did nth much. just lazing ard.
bought ingredients for tml`s lunch.
had dinner at crystal jade.
and now its time to get ready to liquidfy with my girls.
:)
no more heels. at least for tonight.
hope it will be fun.

2006-06-17T00:07:00.000+08:00

just finished talking w carol.
im super duper angry la. you are one such bastard.
dun want to say alr la.
if you are ever reading this.
YOU SUCK! and im glad that everything is over!

last night was great. stayin at ecp. doing nth much but talk.
well. the booze does help a lil. talking nonsensical stuffs.
my eyes were so dry. dint bother to wake up for sunrise.
dint want to wake up for breakfast too. hahah.
in the end we got caught in the rain for almost 2hours.
cold and tired and hungry. omg.
thank god im not sick now. haas.

liquid tml night. hmm. sounds great. :)

2006-06-15T15:34:00.000+08:00

now im in school waiting for them to finish marketing so we can start on CRSPA.
im feeling ok. no hangovers. hahaha.
just that my legs are like going to give way anytime.
head is a lil spinning. and my ears are ringing.

last night our usual gotham was having some weird event gg on and there`s no freeflow. so went over to momo for drinks. cabbed back to mos abt 12 plus.
audrey was damn funny la. i cannot stop laughing at that. hahahhahah.
the crowd was bad. they were squeezing here and step.
keep stepping on my toes. URGH!
there was seriously insufficient space.
and well. last night the music was.... weird.
hahahahaha. other than that im hapy with it. hahahah.

audrey and yinki left early. leaving me ; aggy and shermain in the club.
there was this bastardized bastard who really needs a slap.
he`s dancing with his girlfriend ; and behind his back he was trying to hold shermain`s hand. wtf la. and yay! there was no despo guys last nights. but those who tried to dance with shermain was FUNNY! mwahahahahahha.
next week. more of such fun girls! haha.

gonna stay out tonight. not going home. tml`s mac breakfast. something im looking forward to. :)
whole night staying up late. and just talk. :) kinda looking forward to it too.
now. i think im gonna eat b4 they start on spa. im hungry. hahah.

2006-06-14T21:03:00.000+08:00

went to ubin this afternoon.
the sun was real bad at first. but dark clouds covered it up for us aft awhile.
aggy was the kind soul who double biked me. :)
that place is really bumpy and rocky.
no point holding the map also. cause reading it doesnt help.
hahahhahahaha.
halfway ; wei hua`s bike chain came off. aggy and rachel went to help.
and they used up 2 pkts of tissues to clean their hands.
after sitting at some shop for drinks we were really lazy to cycle somemore.
thou i would want to contd cycling to the quarry and the temple.
hahahha. but guess everybody`s tired.

ubin`s green everywhere. and i dun like green.
its disgusting. if we really wanna build a resort.
there is alot of freaking shit to do! yikes.

am so tired. came back and went dwn to discuss abt tml`s ecp trip.
hahahhaa. daddy walked past la. so funny.
luckily we were just sitting and talking. hahaha.
now. i gotta go bathe and get ready to party with my girls!
U-HOOO!
clubbing as a single. :)

2006-06-14T01:26:00.000+08:00

was late for marketing`s meeting this morning.
supposed to meet at 11. i woke up almost 11.
i know. im such a crap. i just felt like killing myself.
reached there and everything ended by 1230.
haiz. i better buck up. or else. its really bad peer appraisal.

right now. tryin to do some some for CRSPA.
at least its getting somewhere
C:
tml`s ubin day. meeting 1230 at changi.
dun want to be late. dun want to be burnt.
dun want to be sting by mosquitoes. dun want to fall into a puddle of mudd.
right. aggy ask me to bring brolly.
yikes. i dun want to be caught in the rain.
wet and cold and away from mainland! YIKES!

tml night is finally party night. but its also
SPAIN`s first appearance in world cup. cant believe im gonna missed it la.
but its ok. SCV. i love. there are gonna be repeats. woots!
im so gonna enjoy myself. it has been long
C:

anyway today met up w carol aft my project.
after roaming aimlessly in town we went over and look for helen.
and somehow sitting dwn there brought back tonnes of memories.
how i used to enjoy working over there.
with all the girls. it was super noisy and happening.
and definitely it was the place that i met him.
and well. somehow it just bring back memories of us working tgt.
going to eat tgt. me waiting for him to end work.
he coming over to pick me up from work.
suddenly im missing him so much.
but what can i do!? i chose this route alr.
was reading the storybook earlier on and there`s this part there says
"i do love you, you`re a great man, ..... but just not for me"
URGH!

2006-06-13T00:41:00.000+08:00

finally out to breathe in fresh air!
was out to watch cars. haas. yes cartoon.
weird that its guys these days who wanna watch cartoon instead of girls.
omg.
it was not bad thou. storyline. teaching the kids that winning isnt everything.
educational. at times it also serves as a reminder for the adults too.
time to reflect peeps!

its back to tp tml for marketing project.
and i`ve yet to start on my part. gonna start soon. hahaha.
no aggy ; no rachel ; no wei hua.
tml will be a sad day.
:(
lunching w myself.

anyway i had a bad dream last night.
bad dream. sometimes i wonder how strong a friendship can be?

2006-06-12T02:05:00.000+08:00

so sick of staying at home.
been home for more than 48 hours. somebody just save me.
finally fever went down. i can feel my energy building up once again.
hopefully im goin out tml. :)
tml night still gotta do marketing. sucks la.
i have no clue abt what to do. totally no clue.
ZERO! lets see what kinda ~~shit~~ i can squeeze out.
haas.

next week kinda planned out alr. yupz. a rather busy woman.
but mostly its projects! how wonderful can my holidays be.
but its ok. wed night will be the time to destress. haas.
yupz. waiting for it for soooo long. right girls?

been a tv junkie today. watched 2 nice movies.
cheaper by the dozen and soul plane.
man. both definitely cracked me up! its super funny can!!
haas. managed to spend sometime w myself too.
been thinking some stuffs. nopex. not abt him.
i`ve manage to take a chance ; make a risk and breakaway from the vicious cycle that i`d been for so long. i do not regret anything. im glad things are the way they are now.
i`ve moved on. C:

monday`s blues are here again. sucks la.

2006-06-11T00:57:00.000+08:00

yay. im running a temperature again.
dunno what`s wrong with me.
i feel cold but yet my body is hot like dunno what.
haiz. hate getting sick. cause its a sucky feeling.
feeling dizzy too. :(
sorry my dear girls. i couldnt make it to liquid.
i was really looking forward to it.
stayed home the whole day. had been slping most of the time.
BAHHHHHHHHH.
hopefully by tml will be ok alr.
din even finish my dinner. my one and only meal of the day.
sighz. weekends. my hols. cant even enjoy. sucks la.

2006-06-09T22:32:00.000+08:00

was in town this afternoon.
went over to cineleisure to watch benchwarmers.
not bad. quite nice. quite funny.

movie ended abt 530. so early lor.
walked ard and then went home. so no life right.
how much life can i have when mum`s around.
haiz. dunno la.
somehow told her that me and james are no longer tgt.
and she asked me to take dwn our pics on the wall.
somehow those pics just remind me of those good days.
i do miss it. but somehow im angry at myself for thinking so.
over means over alr. no point. face life pris!
whatever.

yupz. im so fed up with my thoughts of you and your memories.
liquid tml. kinda excited. =)

2006-06-09T00:31:00.000+08:00

right. blogger is ~~farked~~ up
came home after project ; had dinner and went kboxing with mum and sis.
been long since i sang. haas. had quite a nice time there too.
somehow my voice not suitable to sing today.
LoL.

did my etiquette alr. haas. so difficult to find certain things la.
keep asking me to buy book. i want to eat them up la.
so irritating leiiiiii

anyway tanning session tml is cancelled.
yinki has to do project last min.
so gonna be out with whoever that dates me out.
haas. mum`s only leaving on sat. feelings got cheated la.
supposedly thurs ; then fri ; then now sat.
omg. haiz. somethings are just so hard to tell her.
she still asks me abt james. if he`s working? why he nv ask me out.
what am i suppose to say. its so difficult to tell her that we are no longer tgt.
haiz. next month. next month i will tell her. =/

im so fed up with my thoughts of you.

2006-06-08T14:37:00.000+08:00

it was raining this morning. couldnt make it to ubin.
maybe its a sign that we are not suppose to go.
haha. now in school. doing project.
so boreddddd.

last night was too tired to blog.
woke up and shopped with mum.
surprisingly there aint much thing fer me to buy.
so yay. no shopping done. hahah.
we were over at J8 and all of a sudden i looked up at action city
and yupz. he was working there.
my heart raced. din know what to do.
told mum there`s nth to shop up there we shld leave.
so yupz. went dwn to swensens fer ice cream.
man. i dunno what i`ll do when i see him.
i also dunno how to react.
i haven even tell mum. grrrrr.

had dinner over at MS carls` junior.
super full. walked over to esplanade.
enjoy the night with a lil sea breeze.
it was simply perfect. except that the sky was rather cloudy.
not much stars to be seen. =(

missed mos last night. tonight also giving it a miss.
man. i really wanna club.
this sat girls. and the next wed and the following wed ya.
ladies nights are made for us. hahaha.

2006-06-07T00:41:00.000+08:00

accounting paper is over!
careless mistakes here and there ; ignorant of what to do as well
hope i will pass. just a pass is good enough to keep me happy
=)

had lunch at norgan vazz with tim ; felix ; rachel ; aggy ; sher ; yinki
that smelly place i miss.
thou its smelly but i love the baked pasta.
trained dwn to town after that.
caught the 250 da vinci code with yinki darling.
yes i know we are super slow. but then again i watched it.
so who cares. >.<

alot ppl gave comments on the show. its boring ; not nice
negative comments more than positive ones
was kinda skeptical whether shld i watch it.
anyway the movie was NICE!
4.5 / 5 popcorns.
haha. actually i think it depends on individual.
and yupz. the movie i know its fiction.
so not gonna really believe in jesus and mary magdalene is tgt or what.
but well the movie did made me think that
"could all that i believed all along be a lie?"
there are so much to ask.

whatever. mum sis and granny were over at ps
such a coincidence ; we walked over to meet them
went dwn to bugis to shop ard and had dinner.
haha. guess yinki and my mum had a nice talk.
LoL. yupz. those talkative and expressive genes were inherited from my mum.
and im proud of it. cause im proud of my mum.
thou she`s not perfect ; but to me she is
of course there are flaws in her ; but still she`s my mum.
my mummy dearest.
when i saw what work did to her thumb. it broke my heart.
it really does. it cuts my heart to know that she`s suffering.
sometimes i just wish i can faster graduate and work
and support my parents. so they do not have to work anymore.
seeing them working so hard just to let me and my sis have a comfortable life sure breaks my heart. no matter how much they are going thru in work ; they still grit their teeth and make do with it.
so often in life ; we take simple things like this for granted. things that are right before me and yet i dunno how to appreciate. my parents they are the greatest regardless of what others think. i love my mummy and daddy. =)
<3

2006-06-06T00:23:00.000+08:00

met up fer lunch at design.
ate cutlet instead of chop. REGRET!!!
BAHHHHHHHH

went over to library to study with my girls.
just the 5 of us. good old times. i really miss the get together.
=(
studied quite abit. and yes. alot of doubts are so much clearer now.
hopefully tml im able to do the 3 qns wout much difficulties.
i seriously dun want to fail and look dumb.
haha.

mum`s back. mos w aggy on wed?
I WANT! but dunno what will she say. see how la. tml then ask her la.
i seriously itching to club la. but i dun want to upset her.
so i shall see how la. BAHHHHHHHHH.
maybe i shall just wait till sat. liquid liquid liquid.
grrr.

paper tml.god bless.

2006-06-05T03:03:00.000+08:00

had a super tiring day.
woke up at 10 ; prepare for breakfast w jon and tc.
it was great time spent with those 2 frens.
=)
they did made my life in PSS more bearable
i will look forward to our next milkshake date ya!

jon left aft that to meet slackaroo.
me and tc went to LJS and studied. only managed to study abit.
heart abit not there ar.
anyway saw my cute lil mole over at LJS. haha.
how small can spore be man. miss that girl so much. =)
anyway freeze till 530 liddat then went over to swim. woohoo!
from 6 all the way to 8 and then it was dinner.

felt glad when i received your call and sms. =)
and well did meet up awhile b4 i went home.
feels so nice to see you around. =)

and well its back to tp tml. ACCOUNTINGS!!!!!

2006-06-04T01:31:00.000+08:00

ignore my previous post.
my mind is actually still whirling around.
i dunno what is truly going on in there.

i need a good cry. i really need it.
i need to let it all out.
but how am i suppose to do so?
i think after the cry im able to settle down and move on

james if you are ever reading this.
you are such a special person in my life.
you sure were. and you will always be in my heart.
i know you love me alot. and you shld know i sure did.
in fact you are the one i love most in my entire life
more than daniel. im sure of that.
but somehow we are just not suitable fer each other
and to prevent more damage done to either of us
i have to grit my teeth ; pluck up all my courage and bid you goodbye
i know you do not deserve this.
i din want things to end like this too. im really sorry.
im sick of the way being treated by you.
im sick of being contented with what you can give me
im sick of lying to myself
im sick of suppressing all the feelings i feel.
dear. if you could still allow me to call you that one last time.
i really do love you but i have no choice but to say goodbye.
yes i do miss you. i miss not having you around at times.
but come to think of it ; you were never really around.
those happy times will always be a part of me.
be strong k.
i know this sound cliche ; but we could always be friends.
if we are really meant to be ; we will be in the end

under the smile ; its actually sadness
its hurting inside ; im crying but not on the outside anymore

2006-06-04T00:23:00.000+08:00

met up with carol and jin hai today.
well. it indeed made me feel better.
at least im not as depress as last night.

finally the ringing has stop. and i do not know whether am i happy or sad.
but somehow i know i wanna move on with my life.
being single and carefree.
free to meet all my friends
free to go out with whichever guy i want.
free to go clubbing and not be guilty of anything.
free to go after my own happiness
~~free to enjoy the attention i get from him.~~

now the second phase of my current situation is actually facing myself.
and im afraid of doing so. im afraid of knowing what i truly want.
right. running away has always been my forte.
but i dunno if i shld do so anymore.
but im just afraid to face it. whatever.
i can take all my time. cause i know you will give it to me.
in the meantime, enjoy singlehood.

i want you to know that thou i miss holding hands with you
miss walking back home with you
miss meeting you at the interchange
miss having dinner at central with my fav ice cream aft that
time will never turn back
we gotta look forward and move on with life
thanks for all those memories
it will be safely kept in my heart
goodbye and take care

2006-06-02T15:41:00.000+08:00

these are my confessions

[ ] I'm afraid of silence.
[ ] I Talk A LOT when I get really nervous.
[ ] I am really ticklish.
[x] I'm afraid of the dark.
[x] I'm afraid of facing my back to open doors atnight.
[x] I can't sleep in a room if the door is open
[ ] I can't sleep in a room if the door is closed
[ ] I am afraid of gay or lesbian people.
[x] I believe in true love.
[ ] I've run away from home
[ ] I listen to political music
[ ] I collect comic books
[x] I shut others out when I'm sad.
[x] I've stayed out all night.
[x] I open up to others easily.
[ ] I am keeping a secret from the world.
[ ] I watch the news
[ ] I own over 5 rap CDs.
[ ] I love Disney movies.
[ ] I am a sucker for green eyes.
[ ] I am a sucker for brown eyes.
[x] I am a sucker for blue eyes
[ ] I dont kill bugs
[ ] I have an "x" in my screen name.
[x] I've slipped and fell in public.
[x] I've slipped out a "lol" in a real conversation
[ ]I love Spam....
[ ] I bake well
[ ] I have worn pajamas to class.
[x] I have owned something from Abercrombie.
[ ] I want a better job
[ ] Talked on a phone for 6+ hours.
[ ] I love Dr. Phil.
[ ] I like multiple people
[ ] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
[X] I am self-conscious.
[x] I love to laugh.
[ ] I have smoked a pack in one day.
[ ] I loved Lord of the Flies.
[ ] I have cough drops when I'm not sick.
[ ] I can't swallow pills.
[x] I have a lot of scars.
[ ] I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room.
[x] I love chocolate.
[ ] I bite my nails.
[ ] I am not comfortable with being me.
[ ] I play computer games when I'm bored.
[x] Gotten lost in the city.
[x] Thought of suicide before.
[x] Seen a shooting star.
[ ] Had a menage a trois.
[x] Gone out in public in my pajamas
[x] Have kissed someone really strange....
[x] Hugged a stranger.
[ ] Been in a bloody fist fight with someone of adiff. sex.
[ ] Been in a fist fight
[ ] Been arrested.
[x] Laughed and had some type of beverage comeout of my nose.
[x] Pushed all the buttons on an elevator.
[x] made out in an elevator.
[ ] Swore at Liberace.
[] Kicked a guy where it hurts on purpose
[ ] Been skydiving.
[x] Been bungee jumping.
[ ] Gotten stitches.
[ ] Drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour
[x] Bitten someone
[ ] Been to Niagara Falls.
[x] Gotten the chicken pox.
[ ] Crashed into a car...
[ ] been to Japan.
[x] Ridden in a taxi.
[x] shoplifted
[ ] Been fired.
[x] Had feelings for someone who didn't have themback.
[x] Stole something from your job.
[x] Gone on a blind date.
[x] Had a crush on a teacher/coach.
[ ]Celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans.
[ ] Been to Europe.
[ ] Slept with a co-worker, and/or employee.
[ ] been to New York
[ ] Been married
[ ] Gotten divorced
[x] Saw someone/something dying.
[ ] Have a list of people you want to kill.
[ ] Driven over 400 miles in one day.
[ ] Been to Canada.
[x] Been on a Plane.
[ ] Seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.
[x] Thrown up in a bar or club
[x] Eaten sushi.
[x] Been snowboarding.
[x] Continued to care for someone sooo much even though you know you can't have them
[x] taken a picture just for the sole purpose ofputting it on myspace/friendster..
[x] Been ice skating
[x] Cried in public.
[ ] Walked purposely into trafficwith your eyes closed.
[ ] been at a party and instead of giving out yourphone number you give them your mypsace nameand say look me up
[x] liked someone even though you knew you shouldn't have.
[x] Thought of someone a lot lately.
[ ] Hate the world.
[x] Love someone who doesnt realize it
[x] have your cell phone permanently attached toyour hand/hip
[ ] cried over a guy/girl you didnt even go out with

2006-06-02T15:29:00.000+08:00

i dunno what`s wrong with me.
i just want to be alone. im gg swimming alone later.
it has been long since i did that.
i just wanna spend sometime with myself and sort out some thoughts.

guess coming home early on a friday aint doing me any good.
life sucks. period.

2006-06-02T03:37:00.000+08:00

finally done with my marketing.
entre mr lee say still has some problem. but im too tired to care abt it.
shld be can pass one la. im gonna ignore whatever he said and just submit.
haha. what`s the point of asking him then right? i also dunno. LOL.

my brain is totally dead now. cant think of anything alr.
thank god. there`s no test tml. if not i can jolly well bang the wall.
anyway our dear ZW is so sweet. make me go school fer 2 hours earlier! when i can slp fer another 2 hours comfortably in my bed. grrr.decided not to go fer it.
but then come to think of it. i need to hand in my projects as well. might as well go fer it.
just slack and stone in her class lor. attendance will be taken. not so early take my annual leave. wahahahahhaha.

anyway had a great dinner just now. was over at changi v.
sitting by the beach ; looking at the wonderful night
sky planted with stars. omg.
it has been super long since i had looked at such a beautiful starlit night.
shooting stars saw a few. so excited can! hahahahahahahahahaha.
felt so silly when i was making a wish. =)

aiights. gotta go pack my bag alr. if not. tml no need see ZW alr.

2006-06-01T14:06:00.000+08:00

right now in the lab waiting fer test to start.
totally has no mood to study fer it just now la.
dunno why all of a sudden i think abt you.

felt that im being unfair to you.
all of a sudden everything came crashing dwn to you.

msg`d carol. she said its not being fair to who or unfair to who.
but its being fair to my own feelings.
i have to let go somehow. if not i will nv let it go.
its true. but its so difficult to let go.
im not gonna run back to you. i made the decision and im gonna stick to it.
this im very sure.
somehow everytime you call my thoughts get all jumbled up.
stop doing this to me. will you?
if you want back your stuffs you can just send me a msg and i`ll see what we can do.

am i really that soft hearted? is that really my weakness?
i dunno. after all it has been more than a year. its not easy.
i hate to think of you. tears well up in my eyes.
i want to move on with my life. but somehow something is holding me back.

2006-05-31T23:52:00.000+08:00

am so freaking tired. after class waited fer yinki
so did some marketing. now i think i still have half undone.
im really super tired. gonna slp early today.
had a super full dinner. came home bathed and went dwn to study.
managed to finish reading thru all 5 weeks lectures.
how much my brain can absorb is another matter.

had a nice surprise while studying. =)

im half dead. those dark eye rings are really killing me.
5 more days to freedom! woo hoo!!!

2006-05-30T22:58:00.000+08:00

despite having morning call from my DEAR wanyi.
i still slept thru the entire morning.
only willing to wake up at 11 and get ready fer school.
late fer AR. din really care. signed attendance anyway. so who cares.
LoL. AR is really becoming me and shermain`s fav lesson.
listening to all the rnb i can find in my zen neon. LoL.

everybody din want to go fer etiquette. but we still went.
haha. nobody paid attention to a single shit she was blabbering abt.
came home aft that. actually im quite a homely girl. i love to come home st8 after school. haha.

i realised ytd i din blog abt culi lesson. it was the first day of operation
and well ; i plucked herbs ; marinated chicken ; made pasta
=)

i really pluck alot of herbs till when i was at the playground talking
those tiny little trees look like those herbs and i have the urge to pluck them
hahahahahhahahahahahahhahaha.

anyway this morning when i wake up i saw our pictures on my wall.
it used to feel so nice to be greeted by that when i open my eyes.
but tday it somehow feels sad to look at that. those good times which we had will only be memories to me.
good times we sure had. but we also have a fair share of bad times.
its those times that makes me feel like a piece of shit to you. haiz.

whatever.

marketing project due on friday! and woohoo! i haven really do it yet.
im so so so so so so dead. im seriously stuck. any kind soul? =)
haha. my dear boy dropped his phone into the water while catching crab.
haha. and it has to take him 1.5 months to finish servicing his phone.
wahahahahahahahhaha. its just so funny la. i know i shldnt be laughing. but i cannot control. hahahahahhahahahaha. lucky you got a spare phone. imagine being phoneless fer 1.5 months. omg. i can not stop laughing. hahahahhahahhahaha.

things to be done tml.
-study fer CRSPA on thurs
-contd to work hard fer marketing.

im still waiting fer a call. :)

2006-05-29T23:52:00.000+08:00

if you are reading this please read carefully.
there isnt any other guy who affects my decision to break up with you.
and im not breaking up with you bcuz you have no time to accompany me only.
please get this 2 facts into your mind k.
cause no matter how i tried to tell you in the past. you still think that cause you have no time fer me that`s why im kicking such a fuss.
please! its not!
right. i say you were nv by my side when i needed you.
it does not mean that you have no time fer me.
times when i needed you. like when my grandma was hospitalised ; i was so afraid
i just wanted a comforting hug. but you were no where to be found. you were sleeping. who do i turn to!? my friends!
when i lost my atm card i was feeling bad enough alr
and instead of comforting me you scolded me fer being careless!
that`s not being there fer me.
being in a r.s is not only 2 person in love with each other. there are other factors as well.

i would really want to be strong and get over this.
thou its what i really want ; but im hurting inside as well
there wun be anymore us ; we ; our
there will oni be yours ; mine

if you want to blame me ; hate me
i cant do anything. im really sorry.

thanks pals fer all your concern. =)
hope that i will be well fer all the upcoming tests. =/

2006-05-29T01:42:00.000+08:00

decision had been made. im sorry.
our story has come to an end. i`ve decided to let go.
i din mean to hurt you. but if i stayed on it will oni hurt both of us even more.
feelings has faded. and yes i guess its hard to find it back anymore.
no point staying. honestly i tried so much to think of the happy times to bring back the feelings. but all that came up in my mind are the times when you broke my heart. one time after another. my heart cannot break any further ; its numb alr.
this is how badly hurt i am.

i`ve given you too much chances within this one yr plus.
and yes. i`ve tolerated so much.
when my mum ask me how are we?
why do i feel so wrong to tell her that we`re ok and that im happy?
i feel like im lying to her.
now. when she comes back next month. hw am i suppose to tell her?
tell her that all along i`ve been lying to her ; lying to myself that im happy?
all this while ; i put a smile on my face
tell the whole world that im happy ; but in my heart im not.
do you understand?
simple things i asked ; the reply i get oni breaks my heart.
you wanna know what?
fine i let you know.

things i asked such like if i met with an accident what will you do?
you tell me you have to see if they will allow you to take off.
my gosh. work is more impt than me even when im dying?
you ever wondered how i felt? is this how you will treat the one you love?

another example would be the 2 weeks break we had.
i hoped that you will use the time to reflect on the r.s
why things have to turn out this way.
why am i doing all this. what im feeling.
when i ask you ; you told me you were busy working.
dun even have time to think.
you know how i feel?
I FEEL WORTHLESS TO YOU!

enough is enough. you never made me feel special.
my last straw has finally broken.
this aint all. i could just go on and on and on.
how i always wanted to go to the zoo with you. but you never once said lets go.
fer 15 mths. and we cant even go to the zoo once!
fine. one yr anni. and you did nth to make me feel special.
other than the first month and my bday.
what other things you did to make me feel special?
haiz. whatever la.
im too tired to think anymore.
my mind is whirling ard now.

2006-05-29T01:01:00.000+08:00

met jt fer lunch just now.
felt so good to hang out with good old friend.
like what he said ; he watched me grow up
haas. you are such an old man!
and like always ; you nv stop disturbing me.
6 yrs ago also same thing!
im no longer the lil girl you used to know ok!

had a great time thou. hope to hang out more often ya.

=)

2006-05-28T00:16:00.000+08:00

just came back from dinner. had a rather full dinner.
im getting fatter and fatter. any quick way to lose weight?

anyway john tan called and asked fer help!
OMG!!!!!
JOHN TAN LEI!!!! can you believe it?!
haha. it has been gazillion years.
just talking to him brings me back to those days.
where i was so in love with him like what belle will say
and where he bullied me non-stop
treated me like a lil sis. man. those were the days.
somehow when he just left church feel weird nt seeing him ard on sundays.
feel weird that nobody disturb me during service.
LoL. those were the days. haha.

gonna meet him tml. =)
it has been long. =)

2006-05-27T15:29:00.000+08:00

aft aggy left ; wy and i just walked ard
was eating candy floss and resting when you reach`d tp
walk`d thru the other schools which i haven see their stalls
got tickets for spore idol from alvin.
wanyi has 2
i oni have 4 more extras. my girls you wanna come?
8 june 2006. 645 pm.

waited fer 518 and went dwn to town.
walked ard till its time fer me to meet brandon fer my 3rd xmen of the week.
im seriously xmen overdosed.
cabbed home after that.

time pass day by day
its taking a toll on me. i do not know how to tell you.
i dun wan to drop a bomb on you.
but cant you feel the changes?
i really dunno how to say it.
yes. thou i will be the one initiating the break up
but my heart aches as well.

i know you are one nice guy. but we are just not suitable fer each other.
i have really given all to make this r.s work
after all i did ; no desirable results i got.
that`s when my heart was numb and dead to you.
im sorry. i din want things to end this way.
but i can no longer hang on.
i just want to be happier even if it means im gonna be alone

i hope that you will read this. so that it will ease my load of breaking the news to you.

2006-05-26T15:14:00.000+08:00

back in tp!!!
=)
ate at design. practically alot of TAS students are back to eat as well.
just finished learning log. thanks buddy fer reminding me. haha.
slacking in lab. CCN not that interesting compared to last year.
now waiting fer someone to come and find me.
haas. im rotting in tp la.

memories of doing projects in comp lab.
with all the mamee and pocky. omg.
miss these days so god damn much!

im gonna watch xmen tonight again!
fish and co fer dinner most prob. =)
woots.

hope to meet you on saturday. =/

2006-05-26T01:46:00.000+08:00

heavy eyelids. kinda tired. dunno why.

missed lectures this morning. cldnt wake up on time.
late fer tutorial too. ya la. im tardy queen la. >.<
aft school finished up with AR and CRSPA.
rushed off to meet belle.
had dinner and yes. we watched xmen. hahaha
wolverine. something i can never get enough. =)
and yes. angel`s body was so hot la.
thou i dun really like him ; but his six pack and everything.
omg. if oni i could have a bf with his body.
WAHAAHAA.

aft that met carol fer some coffee session.
just sit there and talk. haha. just enjoy talking to that woman. keke.

am getting irritated by your msg`s as day pass. dunno why.
why couldnt you be like the past? not msging me at all?

BACK TO TP TML!!! WOOHOO!!!
mensa or design? hmmmmmmm..
gonna be doing project and visit my lovely 08s. =)

2006-05-25T11:12:00.000+08:00

oh my god! xmen just blew my mind away.
i really want to watch it again and again.

i just cant get my eyes away from wolverine.
this time the show is being more than obsess over him
cause the show is really nice and funny at times
OMG!! i still cant believe after 2 years this is what i`ve waited for.
totally worth it!
and i really hope it will still have part 4.
OH MAN! 2 more years? i can wait. haha.

lets go watch xmen again. great date i had.
one that i will nv forget! could you believed it i actually walked home frm ps?
haha. ya i did. time spent are so precious. =)

2006-05-23T21:22:00.000+08:00

gotta start on my marketing soon. i dun wish to be killed by my grp mates tml.
haha.

anyway tday`s lessons were such a bore.
cldnt make it fer acctg AGAIN.
waited fer the rest and went seah im fer lunch.
feels great to eat with old friends. haha.

first time din fall alsp during AR.
listened alil to ZW. was stoning most of the time.
listening to my mp3 w sher. who will actually pay 100% attention to AR!?

etiquette was way worst. she was just talking non-stop.
we took turns to fill up rachel`s notes. haha.
i was so bored that i wrote that piece of shit.
on a happier note! im watching xmen tml. i still cant get over the excitement!

standing at the crossroad of my life

wishing i do not have to make a choice

which way should i go?

after all this time

if i want to let go , is it a crime?

all the love and happiness i desire

you gave none and put out my heart`s fire

tears and heartached i felt

will always be a mystery to you

now im standing at this crossroad

should i stay? should i go?

2006-05-23T10:57:00.000+08:00

yupz. once again due to my lazy bones i couldnt make it in time fer acct.
so here i am bloggin in TAS comp lab. how cool can this be.
not many of you can blog is TAS k. haha. whatever.

great. now that i`ve missed one more lesson fer accts. i dun think i will ever catch up and understand a shit during tutorial. CELEBRATE!
bah. im so lazy la! i cannt afford to be! this sem im gonna give it all!
yupz. prissy is gonna study hard. haha. lets see how long this determination can last la.
haha. im really damn bored and hungry. waiting fer aggy to finish her lect so we can go eat tgt!!

anyway one more day closer to my wolverine!
im watching it tml. whee!!! so happy! damn happy.
after 2 long years of waiting finally im gonna watch it!

2006-05-22T15:45:00.000+08:00

back from culi. seriously i dun mind waking up at 5 plus and get ready fer culi when i`ll be home by 2. haha.
yupz. reached home rather early. and yes. its super boring!!!
nobody online fer to talk. nth much to do online. BAHHH
msgin you makes me happy. =)

did nth much fer culi tday except fer salad.
not too bad i say. cause we learn how to make different salad dressing.
how interesting la. =)
and yupz. my salad tasted not bad. save`d money fer lunch. hahahha.
it looks damn nice too. refer to pic below. hahahah.

next week we`ll be preparing fer operation alr. dunno how it will be like.
gosh. so nervous. hopefully things will turn out well. =)
anyway. i sliced my own thumb. how clever can i get hur?
yes i know. last yr working in polar everybody warned me not to wash the knives the way i always do it. they say accidents bound to happen. got scolded and stuff. din believe.
now. yay! finally lesson learnt hur! haha. now i have a super retarded thumb.
BAHHHHHH.

cant believe. im actually happy and chirpy on a monday!
the thought abt wed`s xmen just get me oh-so-excited.
i can not stop talking abt it la!!! OMG!!!
and part of it ; its the company that im looking forward too.
=)

2006-05-22T01:14:00.000+08:00

woots. im so happy can!!!
im like so totally have dates fer my beloved xmen 3.
wed.thurs.fri.mon.
WOOHOO! and daddy said we are gonna watch it too.
woots. i guess i can nv get enough of wolverine hur.
man!!! im so excited la!! its like in 3 days time!!!

all my monday blues gone! thanks to all my sweethearts!!

anyway belle came online just now. i was practically dancing ard.
i was super happy can. so long nv see her. nv talk to her.
was abt to send out the mail alr lor!!!
omg!! we are meeting on thurs. so happy can!!!
BELLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
keke.
aiights. gotta be sleeping soon. culi lesson at 8am tml.
WOO!!

2006-05-21T02:26:00.000+08:00

am so tired. was abt to close this page. and then i realise i took a pic earlier on.
well well. i want to blog abt this couple. super irritating!!!
was over at carls junior fer dinner. the ms outlet.
it was super crowded. no place to sit. so was waiting fer an empty table.
there was this couple who apparently finished eating and was just occupying 4 seats. they aint eating. was just talking. and munching off crumbs.
so tot they are abt to leave soon. went to order food first. came back. waited fer food.
and they are still there. happily sitting. was super pissed la.
our table oni has 1 seat. or else we wld have settled dwn.
so the family behind us was kind enough to offer us their seats as they have alr finished their meals. finally we got to sit dwn and eat properly. finished our meal and the couple are still there sitting dwn and talking. they refilled their drinks a few times la.
i was so pissed!!! they are really inconsiderate!!!
they were totally oblivious to those ard them who really needed their table fer a comfortable meal. i was really irritated. those who were with me too.

thou the pic aint really clear. but well. they are super irritating!!!

2006-05-20T16:04:00.000+08:00

Your Love Life Secrets Are

Looking back on your life, you will have a few true loves.

You've been deeply wounded in the past, and you're still recovering from that hurt.

You prefer a quirky, unique person to be your lover. You're easy going about who you're with, as long as they love you back.

In fights, you speak your mind and don't hold back. You know you're right, and you can get quite angry about it.

Break-ups can be painful for you, but you never show it. You hold your head high.

Your Love Life Secrets, Revealed

2006-05-20T02:00:00.000+08:00

was over at carol`s aft dinner.
yeah. saw my baby sweets. omg. he so god damn freaking cute la!
yupz. gonna go up more often alr. haha.

anyway met her and did talk a lil.
well well. reality. it hurts and it sucks.
just take one step at a time. things will work out just fine.
i believe so.
=)

my cough`s back. its super irritaing can.
i seriously hate coughing la. is really super irritating.
i hate to be sick. when can i get well!?
GRRRRRRRRRRR!

weekend! no dates yet. SADDDDDDDDDD!!!!!!!

2006-05-19T11:17:00.000+08:00

guilt overwhelmed me. just bcuz of my own laziness and slpiness.
forget to give someone morning call.
he cannot ord as soon. kena another extra 7.
im such a pig. im such an idiot.
im sorry.

school`s at 1pm. :)
but still i gotta bathe and everything fast fast. cause i think im gonna be super hungry later during lesson.
and woo hoo! its ZW! so excited to listen to her xia.
i had sufficient slp. but if i still fall aslp later.
something is very wrong with her! LoL.

hopefully i`ll get to meet carol later. so much i want to say.
if you are reading this. dun ps me k. :)

2006-05-18T01:54:00.000+08:00

forgot to add.
FINALLY SAW THE TRAILER FER XMEN3!!!
im so god damn freaking excited!!!
cant wait fer it to start screening!!!
WOLVERINE!!! omg. omG. oMG. OMG!!!
and well. pyro`s not bad too!!!
MWAAHAAAHAAA.

quick quick. 25 may!!! i`ve been waiting fer 2 yrs!!!
ask me to go watch with you! i will gladly do so!!!
unless i watch it fer like 10days in a row then i will turn dwn the sweet offer.
but if you treat me to such a great movie... i dun see why not.
HAAS. imagine i watch it 10 times. the cheapest also will be $70.
omg!!! but fer WOLVERINE!!! hmmmm.
mwahaahaahahahhahaha.

my latest wallpaper!

whee. im counting down to 25 may 2006!

2006-05-18T01:49:00.000+08:00

went fer movie w ying and audrey. her bf and fren joined us as well.
poseidon. not too bad. gets me all uptight and emotional.
but i dun understand why shermain cried till so jia lat.
ok what. we all never cry lei. hahaha.

whatever. came home. and woohoo! fever`s back.
how happening can this be la. its super irritating.
irritating the shit out of me! the entire day im feeling perfectly fine lor.
FARK LOR!
i want go school tml. i dun wan to be sick anymore!!!
its irritataing!!!
whatever.

came home. took a bath. saw one window blinking non-stop.
and well. it did made my heart skipped a beat. hahahahaha.
whatever. am so tired. gonna sleep real soon!
cause im gonna be a good girl and go fer lecture tml.
not like aggy or rachel. HAAS.

weekend`s coming. and he will be working. anybody wanna date me out?!
im so freaking free. but low budget date k. im close to penniless. =)

2006-05-17T01:27:00.000+08:00

msg`s came. din felt like replying.
even when i reply it was just fer the sake of replying.
mi gosh. priscilla. what is happening to you?
you loved this man so much that you are willing to do anything just to be with him.
now?! you cant even feel a single shit when you see his changes.
why things become this way!? i guess i oni have myself to blame.
i guess i was never a good gf to start with.
demanding your time and attention. throw tantrums at you.
now i can oni break thoses promises i made to you.

i hate ppl who break promises. yet this time round im the one who is doing it.
i really dunno what is happening to me. i just wanna runaway.
run to somewhere where i can be alone and cry my heart out.
no matter how i tried to stop it. it still flowed out.
tears i`ve shed fer him ; fer this r.s he will nv know.

2006-05-16T00:43:00.000+08:00

din go school today ; been sleeping alot at home.
took medicine. felt better. world`s not spining as much.
not so jelly like. shld be able to pay attention in class tml.
=)

so much running thru my mind these days.
i dunno what to think abt. i dunno what to feel as well.
has the feelings faded? or im just too numb to feel?
i dunno how to keep the r.s alive. i really dun.
yes. i do love you. and i do believe you love me.
but somehow im starting to think that you are not the ONE for me.
im sorry if i`ve hurt you by thinking this way.
but thats how im truly feeling.
i tried so hard to make it work. i tried so hard to make myself feel happy and loved when im with you. well its really tiring. and i dunno how long more i can take.
yes im happy. but oni at certain time. not everytime. fer the past 15 months i think i felt more hurt and disappointment than love.
yes. i hope you can truly touch your heart and answer me that in the past 15 months have you really given me the love and happiness that i truly deserve?
i dun wish to hang onto something that is never gonna come.
i dunno what im thinking. i dunno what to do.
crossroad of life. i`ve reached it.
which way to go!?
can someone please guide me.

2006-05-14T22:12:00.000+08:00

back from dinner with dear.
am feeling so sick.
dun think i gg fer culi tml. really cannot make it.
din even have the energy to walk ard with dear.
just wanna come home and rest.

head is throbbing. head is spinning.
gotta go rest soon.

i miss you. come back soon.

2006-05-14T15:11:00.000+08:00

im addicted to lin jun jie latest song.
it keeps playing itself over and over in my head.

click view-encoding-unicode to read.

只对你说-林俊杰

站在寂寞的舞台上
灯光下拖着自己的影子
音乐重复我们共同的忧伤
不是每一次的演唱
就可以淡忘明天没有你
In my heart we’ll never be apart
残留手上的香味提醒我
在数位相机里留下的承诺
每一封简讯传出的思念
都对你说
sarang hae yo means I love you
代表着我离不开你
每分每秒每一个声音
只有你撒娇会让我微笑
sarang hae yo 只对你说
I will love you and forever more
我答应 baby you will see
每一个我都属于你
Oh baby I will love you because
我都属于你

a different face came up when i listen to this song. is it a sign!?

2006-05-14T14:57:00.000+08:00

babear. if you are reading this
i want you to know that you are truly one fren that i dun want to lose.
you are always there fer me. hearing me out.
whether it makes sense to you or not.
whether its just nonsensical ramblings or things that are affecting me
i know i can always run to you.

thank you for listening to me during the breakfast time.
and yes. i know i can confide everything in you without hiding a single shit.
i know you have the best interest fer mi in your heart and yes you will be there no matter what decision i made in the end.
right babear? (you better be!)

pls do not be stress out by your schoolwork k.
DRINK PLENTY OF WATER! and get plenty or sleep.
its your key to flawless skin. wahahaha.
lets meet up againnnnn!!!

2006-05-14T00:28:00.000+08:00

met up with ting and chi today. woohoo.
it has been long. haha.
well. did made it fer breakfast w chi at bk despite being late.
what more can you expect by a tardy queen. keke.

walked ard far east. stayed there till 1 plus cause it was raining.
went over to wisma and ting joined us.
=)

just shopped ard. nth really caught my eye.
ting and chi disagreed with the m)phosis bag.
so din get it. =(
anyway had dinner at taka`s B2 ambush.
it`s really a bad place. wasted my money.
never goin back there again.

train`d dwn to bugis. contd shopping.
and woohoo! bought something!
so happy can!!!
got my bag and a pair of berms fer school.
=)
saw this skirt that i really liked.
but din get it cause due to insufficient funds.
will go back there and get it. cause i really like it alot
those long flowy skirts. woo hoo.
yay. im more into the demure look now.
wahahahaa.

fever`s back. head throbbing.
gonna get some rest b4 i faint on my comp.

no matter how rarely we meet up or talk. you will always have a special place in my heart. <3

2006-05-12T18:45:00.000+08:00

fever gone down a lil.
tim and the rest are gg to mos to celebrate felix`s bday.
no mood to club ; gonna give it a miss

sometimes life is so complicated that you dunno what to do with it.
time time time. time will tell everything.
no point rushing. take your time to know all you need to.
that`s what im gonna do.

its such a boring day. but i had a nice time.
waking up late on a lazy afternoon.
the weather is just so nice can!
haha.
aiights. gonna meet him fer dinner alr.

i cant get you out of my mind. i cant forget the way you smell.
i rmb the way you hold me. i rmb the way you look at me.

2006-05-12T00:01:00.001+08:00

WELL DONE BLOGGER!
my one long entry just VANISH`D INTO THIN AIR!
GRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!
im pissed. seriously pissed!

was so excited abt ytd eventful day la!
yes im typing this fer the 2nd time.
after classes aggy came over my place
change`d and well rush`d to RP to meet my girls
we are finally gg fer our long awaited sakae buffet.
WOOHOO!!!
well. wei lun and ivan joined us as well. =)
i was so freaking full from my subway lunch la
WASTED CAN!!
i oni ate 9 plates. break record alr lor.
eat so little. im damn sad la.
BAHHHHH
anyway din really get to talk much with my girls.
cause the seating arrangement at sakae sucks like hell!

puked 3 times today.
my stomach was really irritating.
i alr have nth to puke alr.
but the feeling is just so sick.
forced it out. no choice.
luckily head`s not spinning so bad. haha.
anyway yes i was a good gir
lcause i went to school. =)
and yes. i din even finish my dinner.
it was simply too upsetting for my stomach.
grrrr. whatever.

anyway yay! im having fever.
what a great way to welcome the LONG weekend.
right. gonna enjoy my weekend with a TEMPERATURE!
hahaha. sick fark!
aiights. gonna prepare myself fer amazing race ltr. =)

2006-05-10T00:43:00.000+08:00

today is tired tuesday.
im so tired ; overslept
missed culi lecture. by the time i reach school
late fer acct lect. so decided not to go.
instead i went to the lab to print notes.

hmm. still got more notes not printed yet.
will print it soon. hahahahahahha.
shiseido workshop tday.
quite interesting. din know abt so many stuffs.
hahaha. but im still lazy to do all to take care of my skin
well. im super worried abt wrinkles.
so no more tanning fer me. even if tan.
sunblock please. hahahaha.

whatever la. entre is killing my brain cells.
can oni think abt one type of business.
grrrrrrr.
mambo tml night. =)

gotta finish up with entre and slp
im so god damn freaking tired!

2006-05-09T01:33:00.000+08:00

monday has come to an end.
and well. culi was fun. but super tiring.
maybe due to my lack of sleep?
and well. i wasnt late. was on the dot.
next week. i gotta leave my house earlier.
=)

came home and put my things before heading to hv fer dinner with jiam and mandy
oh wells. nth much. just crapped and everything.
im so full la. from the swensen`s pasta and UNLIMITED SCOOPS OF ICE CREAM.
omg. chocolate freckles. my new found love.
=)

am so tired. gonna pack my bag and sleep and prepare fer school tml.
FORMAL WEAR. sighz.

2006-05-08T01:14:00.000+08:00

tml is monday. and i totally hate mondays!
so many things to pack and prepare fer tml class.
it simply sucks like hell la.
my nails are so farking short now.
and yes. the hair net is big enough fer my bundled hair and not my head.
GRRR. dunno how to die tml.
and yes. my tragus stud couldnt be taken out.
im seriously pissed. super super pissed.
my knive set cant even fit into my puma bag. man.
and the safety boots weigh a million tonnes

GOSH! no make up.
how am i gg to meet LANcers aft that?
with so many bags and NO MAKE UP!
mwaaahaahaaa.

i seriously hate mondays!!!
could i just have more labour days!?

2006-05-07T23:21:00.000+08:00

hmm. weekend has come to an end.
school tml. SUCKS.

he came over during the afternoon to pass mummy her gift
and we went dating. haha. simply love to go on dates.
watched MI3.
nothing special happened.
simple sunday ; simple date ; simple bliss.
yes darling. i like it when you make plans like this.
=)

sighz. gotta wait till next weekend till we next meet.
gonna miss him so. and yes. the both of us super dread fer the day to end.
cause it means i gotta wake up early fer school
and he gotta wake up early fer work.

gotta pack my stuffs fer tml`s culi class.
BAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

2006-05-07T02:57:00.000+08:00

"if you read this, if your eyes are passing over this right now, even if we don`t speak often, please post a comment with a memory of you and me. it can be anything you want, either good or bad. i promise not to go after you with a parang or whatsoever."

its always a fun to know what other remember about me. esp those close to my heart. =)

thank you.

much love,
priscilla

ripped from em`s blog

2006-05-07T02:41:00.000+08:00

dunno wazzup with me.

the entire day im super pissed.
piss with every single living thing
piss with every lil thing
piss with mum ; piss with him
so piss till i went shopping with mum and got nothing
that`s how piss i am

after being online fer awhile ; things are ok alr.
now im smiling and laughing
hahaha.
cause i have a babear that loves me so much that she is changing my taggy
so she can tag. =)
well. peeps out there thank my babear.
you guys can tag normally and i can be free from anymore taggy complains.
haha..

yinki your blog is seriously cracking me up!
really. really. what kick the box session
mwahaahaaa.
i really miss you loads. wout all your nonsense daily.
life is such a bore. =(

i really dun like the way you are spending your sat night.
2 nights in a row. i really dun like. im piss!

2006-05-06T01:47:00.000+08:00

aiights. after a torturous week. i finally went to the doc
and yes my cough is getting better
=)

just need a few more dosage of medicine and rest.

mum`s back last night. hopefully get to spend sometime b4 she leaves this weekend.
man. the few days never seems enough fer us to spend it with her.
im so drowsy from the last dosage of medicine.

let me smile widely and welcome the coming weekend.
hopefully get to spend it with him as well. it has been days
keke. aiights. im really super tired.
gotta sleep.

im so jealous can! aggy and sher are like enjoying their night away.
i wanna go also!!! i seriously have the urge to club.
but there`s my cough and mum factor.
SO....
GIRLS! next wed pls. do not disappoint me will ya!?
HAAS. whatever.

update again. =)

2006-05-03T01:02:00.000+08:00

if coughing my lungs out is not bad enough
i now have stupid red eye.
its not itchy or pain ; its just red
irritating lei!
woke up with swollen eye. which was super red.
at first couldnt even open my eye.
grr.

school was bad. the oni best part was lunch when me and my girls went to subway.
thou wy was not there. it was still fun.
seriously i dun mind gg subway to eat every single day
if the "fare and square" is gonna greet me with those kinda food.
SUCKS MAN!
and straight aft my happy lunch gotta see zhang wei.
omg. she totally brought me to lala land.
yes. pannie aggy and me were sitting right infront and sleeping. wahahah.
was so excited to print notes when i was in the lab fer less than 15 mins
the warning came up. so irritated can!
whatever.
came home with home cooked food. i love it.
been long since i eat at home.
somemore daddy made my fav chicken.
=)

finish`d acct tut. so proud of myself.
gonna pack bag soon and sleep.
meeting my baby tml aft school. woohoo. so happy!!!

=))

2006-05-01T23:57:00.000+08:00

there`s school fer the next 4 days.
and im so not looking forward to it.

anyway dine`d at pizza hut just now.
finally i got to fulfil my craving fer pizza this few days.
haha. was so full can!
im still so full. hopefully can sleep soon on a not so full stomach.

anyway the weekends are over so soon.
how i wish time will just stop when i have him by my side
but now i gotta prepare myself fer school.
mentally ; emotionally ; physically
lolx.

guess what? i keep thinking abt the beancurd at chomp chomp.
i so wanna go back and try all the flavours. =)

well. talk`d to dear abt some stuffs.
and yupz. we are gonna save up fer a trip this yr end.
yeah! im so happy! i will look forward to it.
haha

yay. gotta go pack bag and sleep.

2006-05-01T00:43:00.000+08:00

woohoo. it has been real long since i went dating w my bf on saturday
haha.

ytd was like the best day in months. haha.
met him over at potong pasir mrt.
went over to ps and bought tickets fer 2110 movie at marina square
yes yes. we watched cartoon. the wild.
haha. aiights. aft we got the tix we shopped ard ps ; taka ; wisma
was so tired of walking so we went over to ms.
aft dinner went fer movie
home`d aft that.
thou its just a simple saturday. but im enjoyed myself.
and i want more of such saturdays. =)
just having you by my side. holding my hand as we walked dwn the streets
telling me "that skirt so short. the top so low."
haha. =)

din really shopped or buy anything yet.
cause my source of income is not here yet.
maybe tml i might get my m)phosis bag.
i cant wait to buy it bring to school. haha
my puma bag is way too big. others are mainly sling bags
so. i kinda need that bag. anyway i dun buy bags fer school that often.
=) and this is cheaper than my puma one. so i think its worth it.
=)
and yes i freaking need a new jacket. waiting fer mummy to be back to go shopping with her
lolx.

so bored. staying over at dear`s aunt hse.
she went fer a short trip. so we are here taking care of the dogs.
he is such a responsible man. lookin at him doing all the housework kinda let me see what kinda man he will be when he has a family.
=)
and yes we are gonna have a dog tgt. =)
oh man. im thinking too much. i dun mind thinking nonsense.
i dun wanna think abt tuesday when i have to go all the way to TAS fer lesson.
HOW NICE CAN LIFE BE!!!

BAHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2006-04-29T13:43:00.000+08:00

ytd went back to TP!!!
woots. so happy can. ate at mensa.
i tell you the chicken chop is really like heaven compared to TAS`s canteen
anyway was busy printing notes.
b4 we cld finish priniting ; off we went fer SL`s briefing

HTM orentation.
it was rather fun. but i was super tired to be really enthu.
lolx. anyway my dear H08 came.
super happy to see them can. =)
haha. and they said they love their SLs!!!
aggy. are you touched? cause i am. haha.
the whole thing ended almost 11.
reached home just in time to catch survivor
thank god din miss alot. =)
so there i was all sticky and smelly refusing to bathe till the end of survivior
lolx.

someone told me that he dun dare talk to me cause i look v fierce
that`s like so funny can. im the friendliest person on earth.
HAHAHAHA.
do i really look v fierce?!

2006-04-28T03:59:00.000+08:00

went fer lecture this morning.
headed dwn to expo fer FHA

WOOHOO! the food there looks delicious
taste delicious too.
i wun wanna go fer food fair anymore
cause its nothing like this
LoL

i ate 3 scoops of ice cream.
ate till my stomach is so bloated.
so many other nice stuffs too.
man. the waffles are still lingering
i really wanna get it. he says spore sells it.
im gonna hunt it dwn.
WAHAAHAA.

had this totally pure chocolate drink
woohoo. my taste bud really went to heaven.
=)

gonna post some pics soon.

BACK TO TP TML!
im so happy can. mensa`s salad bar awaits me.
gonna print notes too.
HTM orentation aft that. hope it will be fun
with my still swollen ankle and irritate throat.

anyway im missing my baby.
=)

2006-04-27T00:54:00.000+08:00

happily skipped school today.
it was raining this lovely morning
it makes sleeping in such a luxury
haha.

pick`d sis frm bus-stop
came home slack`d ard and bathe and got out to meet him
hmm. had dinner over at bugis
walk`d to suntec
resisted the temptation fer b&js
was at the arcade
OMG. the mickey is so freaking cute can
yes yes. he tried to catch it fer me
but well. he fail`d
its ok thou. cause i din really expect him to do it fer me
the thought of it was super sweet.
i was really all smiles when he stood b4 the machine measuring
L0L. so cute can.

train`d back to tpy. bought hotfudge sundae
and well. its school early in the morning again.
sighz. guess i will oni meet him during weekends.
im so gonna miss him

anyway i just gotta complain. i really super hate to take trains!!!
man. if it wasnt bcuz of sentosa i wun have bought the train concession
BAHHHHHHHHHHHH
if i do take train to sch. which is super dumb.
i will take 1hr instead of my lovely 20 mins
guess i just have to fully utilise my $45 train concession fer the upcoming year
cant wait fer march 2007 to come!!!
and i can wave goodbye to TAS.

2006-04-26T02:45:00.000+08:00

finally blogger is like working.

school has started and i seriously dread gg to school
especially the travelling to and fro sentosa
and well. the food really SUCKS!
it seriously sucks big time.
best part of all?
only 1 hour break a day
where got time to go elsewhere to eat
cant even eat subway
SADDDDDDDDDDDD

class is pretty ok with aggy next to me
imagine wout her. i will really die in class.
lessons are freaking cold. guess i need a new jacket soon.
a thicker one ; one that will keep me warm in class
no tut yet. so dun really know my classmates yet.
praying hard project mates are good. =)

tml got no school. REJOICE!
actually got 1hr of entreprenuership thing
but. its just one hour.
super lazy to travel to school.
somemore not feeling well ; my stomach is like killing me
hahaahahha.

anyway i think im super not used to waking up early fer school.
i get so lethargic when im in class
tryin so hard to pay attention. =)
ytd went over to dear`s hse ; wanted to slack ard and wait fer him to go fer dinner and he can go fer his night classes while i go home
but guess i was so tired that i just fell asleep.
in the end i was sleeping in his room. haas.
his lesson cancelled
so woke up abt 8 ; went fer dinner then back home
tday met him aft sch. bought stationery
needa get ready fer school. =)
came back my place fer dinner
watched vcd ; i was so tired and not feeling well
that i fell asleep again
L0L. poor dear. watch`d the entire show by himself
anyway woke up abt 7 plus. felt so much better.
so we contd to slack in front of the tv.
he also helped me rub my swollen ankle.
so sweet can.
finally the time came fer him to go.
i really dun wan him to go.
call me clingly ; call me needy
whatever it is. i love this man and i just wanna spend all my time with him
=)

hope to see him aft his work tml.
=)

i still need to get a few more stuffs to be fully prepared fer school
wahahaha. aggy help`d me bought a water bottle alr.
so i just need that m)phosis bag ; a jacket ; a pair of havannas
and some shorts that`s suitable fer school.
L0L. may may may may. faster come. im super broke now.
mummy coming back soon. =)
mwahaahaaahaaa. evil laughters. i know my mummy loves me.
so no choice. but im not gonna be a spoilt kid.
thinking where to bring mummy fer dinner on mothers` day.
im a filial daughter after all. WOOHOO. so proud of myself.

aiights. gotta contd to slack fer awhile b4 sleeping.

2006-04-23T23:52:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABY!!!

hoped you like the gift and enjoyed the dinner
well i know you did.
=)

right. last night he got so drunk.
his friends are really evil
you shld have see what they forced him to drink

guiness stout with chivas with RAW EGG
mi gosh.
i can never drink that down.
3 cups of that and he was really wasted.
so poor thing.
took him home soon after that.

this morning he woke up to a super wonderful hangover.
LOL.
let him rest till everything`s ok dan we left the house.
well well. rub`d my leg.
now it stinks and itchy
HAAS. luckily tml can take out alr.
aft much discussion
went to cartel fer dinner
WOAH! we order`d quite abit.
we came close to finishing.
HAAS. my stomach is so bloated now.
cant slp.

whatever.

tml school`s starting ; 8 am lesson all the way to 6 pm
thanks man. what a great way to start school
timetable`s ok other then the fact that i have ZHANG WEI!!!!!
BAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
i want to just faint and die
lolx. i dread school to start.
im gonna miss my girls.
seriously. other than aggy. the rest all diff class.
MAN! classes will be super boring.
BAHHHHHHH

pannie ; limmie ; yinki ; aggy
we shall all make an effort to let this friendship stay alive.
you girls will always be someone special to me.
=)
love you guys loads!!!
i know you guy will read this. =)